What the fuck is wrong with me?
I’ve lost over 40 pounds since my june, I’ve changed my outlook on life, I’ve grown up but I’m still single.
I was talking to this guy since September and then texting him lately he seems like… he’s being short with me so I was like alright ima let you go and he tells me no he’s sorry he was just texting his “bf”.
My heart just ripped in half, are you fucking kidding me.. leading me on for like 5 months all the things we said talking about future things and he does that? He crushed me.. I’ve been just sitting around my house being miserable. I drank a lot just by myself and thats just pathetic.
I want to be happy, nothing makes me happy though.
Life isn’t fair at all I just don’t know what the fuck to do, I’m lost.
Long time coming
I haven’t had a good rant in a while.
I need to stop getting fucked up every chance i get, there is more to life then that i just love to escape reality.
I miss my dad well actually i miss the part of his personality that was fun. I miss him doing his little noises and doing little things to fuck with me while driving and somehow not crashing the car every time i hit him back for it.
I miss my family, i miss my brother and my sisters, i miss everyone. But i dont miss the pain, i dont miss the abuse the shitty attitude, the constant bullshit, the stupid rules and then fact that i could barely do shit that everyone else my age was doing.
I had the constant control he tried to have over me, it was crushing.
I want to visit them again but i cant bring myself to look my dad in the face and just forget everything thats happened.
I’m afraid of him, he’s so quick to turn for the worst.
And on to the next problem in my life, LOVE…
Why cant I have love? I’ve been losing weight because every time i lost more i noticed more people wanted to talk to me, i feel better about myself now that i’m losing weight.
I just want someone to like me, i want someone to make me feel wanted.
I’ve been in love only once, and then they hurt me.. crushed me… i just want someone to love again
well tnoguthh
i;’m slightly drunkn cuz my fam is crazy like thfat and lets mey drink with them hahaha finn times lol
havent usedf this thing in likhe fuckknn foerever! a;ksdljfa;klsjdf
okay i;’, gonna go now hoe
you a little to cocky
kevin says joey papa is lol
this is pointless, idk why i’m typing this stuff, kevin keeps talking and i’m just typing okay he’s done talking.
please
tell me life is easier as you get older, because if its gonna get harder… than whats the poin?
(309): She was running around the bar, demanding everyone call her Jesus or else she would attack them like a llama. ack.
